Everything seems normal again, and hope is still here. I guess I have these mood swings everytime we get into an argument. It’s amazing how one person can influence your life, like so. We’re heading quickly into July, which means we’re almost at August, which means we’ve gone almost in a full circle. I am starting to get deja vu online, and I swear sometimes it’s like notihng has changed. I still remember exactly how I felt when I saw AeternusAutumnus in his chat room. One year after, and I still feel that innocent crush when I watch Fall sometimes. I don’t know how it happened, I don’t know what I did, but somehow now, I have him.
I had a MAJOR crush on Fall last year. I still do. It was insane. I don’t know why either. Just HIM, omigawd. It suprises me still that I’m so lucky to end up with him. I had a whole diary dedicated to him and everything. I would follow him into his chat room and stare at his pictures, hoping one day he would be into me too. I guess he felt the same way, just not as fan-girl-crushy-crushy as me. I feel like I’m in a love story. Well, I am. Now that I think about it, I had this obsession wall which I would stick things I’m obsessed to on it, and it’s located right above my bed. His name was ALL UP ON IT. I had pictures of fall leaves and everything. I went to bed every night thinking of him; and I always will.
