Helen’s Blog

He signed on! See? Things are going full circle; he’s been spotted. I seem to have an unusual fixation on the screenname, I think it’s because I’m remembering how I felt towards Fall during the beginning of our relationship, and even meeting. All is well, and I am extremely overjoyed. It’s almost 11 months, and my love for him has still been strong. I love him no matter what name he’s under.

These past few days have been a blur to me because I haven’t been able to type anything about them up. Wednesday I went out to the grocery store with my parents; it was so weird. I hadn’t been out in a week, that’s why. Thursdays are always crazy because of so many doctor appointments, it sucks. I saw my therapist yesterday again and she really didn’t have much to say. I’m almost afraid to type about her in case she reads my blog, lol.

My parents are the kind of people who always arrive early–like way early, so we always have to be the ones waiting in line. It drives me mad. Although, that means we’re never late. 

I’ve gone back to Neopets, and sacked a few. I feel I can’t handle the responsibility of four pets. So it’s too bad for them. 

I’m trying to type as little as possible because my nails are bothering the hell out of me. I guess I’ll end this here, or go cut my nails. 

Everything seems normal again, and hope is still here. I guess I have these mood swings everytime we get into an argument. It’s amazing how one person can influence your life, like so. We’re heading quickly into July, which means we’re almost at August, which means we’ve gone almost in a full circle. I am starting to get deja vu online, and I swear sometimes it’s like notihng has changed. I still remember exactly how I felt when I saw AeternusAutumnus in his chat room. One year after, and I still feel that innocent crush when I watch Fall sometimes. I don’t know how it happened, I don’t know what I did, but somehow now, I have him. 

I had a MAJOR crush on Fall last year. I still do. It was insane. I don’t know why either. Just HIM, omigawd. It suprises me still that I’m so lucky to end up with him. I had a whole diary dedicated to him and everything. I would follow him into his chat room and stare at his pictures, hoping one day he would be into me too. I guess he felt the same way, just not as fan-girl-crushy-crushy as me. I feel like I’m in a love story. Well, I am. Now that I think about it, I had this obsession wall which I would stick things I’m obsessed to on it, and it’s located right above my bed. His name was ALL UP ON IT. I had pictures of fall leaves and everything. I went to bed every night thinking of him; and I always will.